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20th Birthday

2012-01-14T20:21:00.001+08:00

14th January 1992

yes, i am officially 20 this year.

20.

it might not be a big number but i officially have the digit '2' in my life.

i feel kinda old but at the same time, i am excited and also a bit worried.

i suppose i am being paranoid about my future and how should i plan it out.

being 20 also means that i have to act like my age, or 'grow-up'

but then again, people say that age is just a number,

which i find that statement very true.

----

well, the day began quite slow i suppose?

didnt do much in the morning.

but during the evening.

LOL

MY MOM EPIC TROLL ME

*Your BIS has been deactivated*

AHHHEMMMM!

.....

moving on

.....

since it was my birthday,

i requested my mom that i want ketam for dinner.

and yes i finally got what i wanted, KETAMMMMMM!

been waiting for ketam for almost a 3 weeks, gah!

and yes, the food was super duper yummy!

overall, i have a wonderful time eating ketam with my family, family friends and also my boyfriend. i suppose that was the first time he saw me eating ketam. ahahah, only a few people know how i am when it comes to ketam.

so here are the presents that i've received for my birthday.

Zara Bag

from my dearest mommeh

Swatch Watch

from Kak Sarina

(i changed the strap to white)

stylist necklace

from Auntie Roseta and Nasekha

Diamond necklace and earrings

from my best boyfriend ever, Aizat.

and also

an iPhone4S

from my mommeh!

thank you mama.

i love you very much.

i have the greatest mother in the world

and nothing can ever replace her.

my mom tries her best to give me everything i want,

and most of the time, i do get what i want.

she can afford to buy me Apple products like

a Macbook, and iPhone.

she makes sure that i get good education

by sending me to a good private high school and also college.

my brother and myself each have our own car,

it would be easier for us to drive anywhere without relying on her.

and also,

she is a single mother.

taking care of her two children,

without any help from other people.

that is how strong and independent my mom is.

i love you mama.

lost and found?

2012-01-10T01:10:00.002+08:00

how weird,

i've been losing stuffs in my room lately.

first it was my specs,

then it was my bodyshop box and

this morning, it was my face wash toner.

what is happening man?

oh, looky here.

i found my specs again.

HOW WEIRD.

its the season to be jolly.

2011-12-25T12:23:00.006+08:00

ITS THE SEASON TO BE JOLLY,

FA LA LA LA LA LAAAA LA LA LAAAAAA!

mom made a small gathering to celebrate Christmas

Mom, Along, Geoff, Uncle David, Auntie Serina and also myself

just the 6 of us to whole night.

feeling the Christmas mood?

a closer look at the Christmas tree.

i suppose mom was the only one who decorated the tree.

she likes doing those sort of stuffs anyways.

i love the decoration just because, its in blue and white.

and not to mention lots of presents!

mom did the table setting, i guess.

on top of the plate is actually crackers.

so, we sit side by side and we pull it together,

and obviously there will be a noisy cracking sound.

but surprise surprise, there's gifts and food recipes in it.

so mom handed me a really huge stocking!

YESSSS ITS CHRISTMAS STOCKINGS!

christmas stockings is more of a

mini gift before opening the presents.

mine is stuffed and FAT!

YESSSS!

as always, mom will definitely get me an angry bird.

and she knows me well, i love food and im a sweet tooth!

got myself some candy canes, chocolates, marshmallow and also KACANG.

LMAO, or as she says it 'LMOA'.

i also got a keychain which quote about chocolate and a bag tag.

so before dinner, i had some sweet yummies.

had some macadamia nuts, which is my favourite.

and looky looky, a ginger bread man!

it tasted like cinnamon by the way.

and it was YUMMEHHH!

SO, NOW ITS DINNER TAIME!

OMNOMSNOMSNOMSNOMSNOMSNOMSNOMSNOMS!

if you read my tweets or saw my facebook status, i had turkey for dinner.

it was so delicious, seriously it was finger licking good!

turkey is actually very complicated to cook.

it might undercook or overcook and it will taste too dry.

mom ordered the turkey from Acme Bar & Coffee,

since she wasnt sure how to cook the turkey.

and some of you all might think

'isnt turkey serve during Thanks Giving?'

well, technically, that is correct,

but its still FOOD, so who cares!

TA-DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

the 4 KG turkey.

yum yum!

and yes, it was DELICIOUS.

BE JELLY OKAY!

Uncle David slicing the turkey for us.

as you can see, there was A LOT of food!

well, maybe that not much, but it was a lot for me.

all the dishes on the table was cooked by Auntie Sarina.

yes, she is such a marvelous cook.

there' stuffings which was suppose to be in the turkey.

but Auntie Sarina said it wasnt healthy to put it inside the turkey.

and we have the sweet potato, carrots, brussel sprout, fried potatoes and also,

we had 2 types of gravy, normal ones and the cranberry sauce for the food.

this is ma plate yo!

LMAO.

it might look unattractive,

but seriously, it was DELICIOUS!

and yes, i ate EVERYTHING on the plate.

just because it was delicious and

i dont like to waste food.

and last but not least, the dessert.

Geoff made me some Christmas pudding.

YUM YUM YUMS!

after dinner was done,

its time to open up the PRESENTS!

YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAYYYYYYYY!

ME ME ME SOOO EXCITED, ME SO EXCITED!

my first gift is from my beloved mommeh and Geoff!

mom knows i love Anna Sui's perfume since, EVER.

so they got me TWO Anna Sui perfume,

Rock Me and Forbidden Affair.

i love you both so so so much!

thank you mom and Geoff.

<3<3<3

next present is from Auntie Serina and Uncle David.

i suppose she knows im a sweet tooth, so i got a bigger candy cane!

and the good part is, the candy cane is filled with chocolates.

and i also got 2 Body Shop lip balms.

thank you so much!

and my last present is from my fat walrus. (brother)

he got me an Owl necklace, which was really cool.

he got it just because i cant sleep at night,

and im like an owl.

LMAO

"OW OW OW, MERRY CHRISTMAS!"

get it? get it?

if you dont get it, youre lame.

LOL

and here is a family photo of us.

overall, i had a good night.

spent some quality time with my family,

had a great dinner and received wonderful presents!

a closer look at all meh presents.

A day out with them cousins. :D

2011-12-22T05:44:00.001+08:00

as the title of the blog post.
i had some quality time my lovely cousins on Wednesday.
:D

since we didnt want to watch movie,
or walk pointlessly at the mall,
we decided to play laser tag!
:D

we played 2 missions,
which was around 15 minutes per mission.
we had breaks in between the games,
and seriously, it was freaking tiring.
or maybe im not fit anymore!
:S

more or less, i injured my leg. AGAIN.
the obstacle course was kinda dark and also
the ramp wasnt that safe because of the smooth surface.
i fell down a couple of times and it wasnt pretty either!
the game play is either against groups or individual,
depending on the crowd for that particular mission.
:/

we spend RM45 perhead for the whole game.
its cheaper during on weekdays and during normal days.
during school holidays and public holidays its abit expensive.
i would suggest people to play on weekday as it wont be that packed.
:)

so after that we had some sweet yummies!
we had Snowflake.
:B

Taroball Series.
this is the best seller in Snowflake.
the taro balls is really yummy!
it only cost RM 6.90.
:B

well, overall it was a good day.
i miss spending time with my cousins.
i love them to bits!
:)

wordless wednesday ; 8

2011-12-21T06:10:00.001+08:00

;)

results.

2011-12-20T06:40:00.000+08:00

YAY!
IM SO HAPPY!

Taylors just posted up the results.
i achieved more than what i have expected
i was expecting a mere 3.0 but, surprise, surprise!
i am happy to see that my hardwork has been paid off.
hopefully, i can maintain this pointer in my coming sems.
and i hope i'll be on the Dean's list in the future!
i just need to maintain my current pointer.
its not going to be easy, but,
CHALLENGE ACCEPTED
:D

9 Years

2011-12-19T05:42:00.002+08:00

Al-fatihah

i miss you ayah.

saturday says 8

2011-12-17T17:18:00.001+08:00

therapy?

2011-12-16T12:44:00.008+08:00

referring to my previous post,

im having this bad moody swing this week

and I'm trying my best to make myself happy.

thou, in the process,

I've been spending some money.

well, normally i would spend my money on food, movie, and more food.

but since my beloved boyfriend is not around for me to spend it with,

i just bought some stuffs for myself since i got nothing better to do.

i consider this, my own personal mini shopping spree,

because i haven't been shopping for myself in a very long time.

LMAO.

i bought some t-shirts and also a new flip flop from F.O.S

F.O.S is having this promo ; 3 T-shirts for RM45.

the original cost of 1 T-shirt is RM20,

so, you get to save up RM5.

the flip flop cost RM30.

total cost ; RM60.

BTW,

check out my BB's new housing!

i LOVE my new BB housing.

LIKE, OMG! ITS SO NAISEEEEEEEEE!

the housing itself cost RM100,

and the cassette cover cost RM35.

total cost ; RM135

i picked this colour because blue is my favourite colour,

while white is Aizat's favourite colour.

not only that, blue is actually my wealth colour,

while white is my health colour.

i did my BB housing in Bangsar, Haus of Bibs.

they have really nice housing and also various type of colours for the housing.

not only that, you can mix and match the colour according to your own taste and style.

they have BB housing for most BB, and they also sell variety of BB covers there.

I highly recommend BB lovers to visit this store.

trust me, you will never leave the store, empty handed.

well, not too worry for iPhone lovers, they can do iPhone housing too.

they have really nice colours and nice covers for iPhone too.

just check out their website for more info.

moody

2011-12-15T13:09:00.001+08:00

for some who didn't know,

i was admitted to the hospital or so last week.

i injured my knee badly,

and the doctor said i can't drive for another month.

FML MOMENT.

somehow, this week is seriously whacked.
im having such bad mood swings since last week,
and all i wanna do is sleep and eat and shisha.

maybe its because im expecting my red waterfall this week.

ARGH!

and not only that,
Taylors still havent posted up the result,
which was suppose to be on wednesday.

hopefully, my week will get better?

I'm just very moody and I'm stressing about a lot of stuffs.my health condition is beyond what I've expected,the doctor said i can't drive for the next month.I'm kinda worried about my exam results,and I miss having my boyfriend around.

hmm?

:(

wordless wednesday ; 7

2011-12-14T11:36:00.001+08:00

:(

2011-12-09T16:36:00.001+08:00

i cant drive for the week.

and my boyfie is flying off tonight.

iSad.

saturday says 7

2011-11-26T10:19:00.002+08:00

wordless wednesday ; 6

2011-11-23T23:06:00.000+08:00

oh gosh, i really miss this show.

monday blues

2011-11-21T15:26:00.002+08:00

a rather boring holiday if you ask me.

meh!

so, i have nothing to do now.

i'll just post up some of the things i like.

saturday says 6

2011-11-19T09:38:00.001+08:00

via ; Tumblr

Holding hands might just be the cutest thing ever. It’s such an intimate gesture, yet innocent at the same time. When you feel their hand touching the palm of yours it’s like the entire world is at your fingertips at that moment. And even better, the first time two people ever hold hands, is precious. When the person nudges at your hand and eventually slides their fingers interlocking with yours and you feel your cheeks getting warm, turning a shade of rosy pink and your heart pounding like drums. When they grasp on so tight like it would be impossible to let you go. How their hand just seems to fit right into yours as if it was meant to be that way. So beautiful and satisfying with a rush of different emotions. And just with the knowledge that your hands are linked together makes your hearts even fonder and you can literally feel how close you are to each other.

HOLIDAY!

2011-11-18T23:53:00.002+08:00

4 MONTHS BREAK!

#WINNING

hopefully,

i will get a part time job in an event company.

any part time job just to kill the time.

#EPICWIN

looking forward for meh Japan trip.

#ULTRAWIN

U JELLY?

U MAD?

MAKE SOME JELLO OR STAY MAD YO!

TROLOLOLOLOLOLOL!

saturday says 5

2011-11-12T02:06:00.000+08:00

sleepless

2011-11-10T04:53:00.004+08:00

its times like this when i hate it the most

i am tired, but i cant sleep.

since i cant sleep,

i will just blog till i get really sleepy

or even sleep infront of meh lappy.

more or less?

i am done with all of my assignments.

YAY.

but...?

i still have finals

NEXT WEEK

#dying

well, looking on the bright side?

i get a 4 months holiday.

i suppose i will be working in an event company for the mean time.

oh, and also a class trip to Japan somewhere next year.

well, thats all for now.

just a little update about my life.

good night / good morning

lazy

2011-11-07T13:40:00.003+08:00

i am

lazy

ASSIGNMENTS.

FINALS.

well, i will look at it a positive way.

im going to finish my sem, NEXT WEEK?

last submission of assignments is tomorrow

and next week is already my finals.

k, be right back.

dying.

28102011

2011-10-28T14:42:00.011+08:00

i finally found my bestfriend and boyfriend.

today is our 1 year anniversary.

for the past 12 month, we have been through the best, the worst and also the unbelievable and we manage to overcome every obstacle threw at us, together. i cannot describe how much i love this boy of mine. i think everybody knows how much this boy means to me. its everywhere on my facebook, tumblr, twitter and also blogger. he knows how to handle me at my worst, and he knows what to do when im upset. i guess, im not as good as him because i dont know what i should do when he is upset or moody but all i know is i should love him whenever possible. i guess, we are not prefect to be with each other because of our differences, but i know for sure we are perfectly imperfect with each other. he might not be my first, but i surely hope he will be my last. i cant promise to be with him forever because forever doesnt exist and we dont believe in forever. however, i am forever thankful to have him in my life. i have learned many things and i have gained many experiences in this relationship and i plan to keep it that way for a long time. i feel lucky to be his first love, and knowing his history, i can say, i am the best.

i remember those days when people didnt believe we could last. they didnt want us to be together. they wanted to see our relationship crash and burn to the ground. but we manage to prove them all wrong. we have been together for a year now, and i havent receive any hate comments on my formspring lately. i can say, i made them eat their own flithy words and make them rot in their own silent grief of shame. they have no face as they cant even reflect on their own being. they criticized how i look thinking they would look better than me. they didnt like your attitude thinking they are much more superior than others. they mock our relationship because deep down, they envied our relationship.

people tend to lose faith in our relationship mainly because we are naive in our own ways. for sure, we did fight and also break up in between the 12 months, but its normal for couples to fight and lose their cool sometimes. relationships are suppose to have fights in order for both to learn and grow stronger with each other. learning from past mistakes has made both of us stronger and more mature in this relationship. many people criticize our relationship as if theirs are prefect but i somehow see some of them are not even happy with their partner. some even pretend that their relationship smooth sailing. but reality is, they are not even happy. the fact is, they are the ones who are missing out on this incredible feeling. i know, not many people can experience this, experience our love. a person who is a part time lover but at the same time, a full time friend. i pity to those who hated and despise our relationship, because i believe our relationship has the best kind of love there is.

i love him.

for all the good days and the bad.

nobody is prefect, but he prefect to me.

he is very annoying.

he likes to stick his tongue out, but i like to do that too.

he makes my days better.

his smile could light up my world without him even trying.

he is supportive and caring.

he supports me, even when he doesnt agree with me.

he is cute all the time.

i love his chubby cheeks, i wanna eat them everytime.

he is adorable everyday.

he can make me go insane with his cuteness sometimes.

he is childish sometimes.

deep down, he wants to be pampered too.

he likes to act macho most of the time.

because he likes to keep his beard and moustache.

he takes good care of me.

because he knows how to handle me at my worst.

he can be bossy at times and not to mention demanding also. he does have his mood swings once in a while, and he can be a little bit nasty and mean sometimes. but throughout the bad times, all i can do is just wait for him to calm down and just let him be.

despite all that, i still love him to bits.

i love him fully, and unconditionally.

Happy 1 Year Anniversary Sayang.

I Love You.

tea party!

2011-10-27T22:03:00.007+08:00

on Depavali day, i helped Ms.Wani to host her little tea party event. the event was actually to celebrate her bloggie's birthday. her blog turns 3 this year.

Shazwani Hamid's Blog

here are some of the pictures of the event.

them boys helping out

this is Miss Wani by the way

FOOOD FOOOOOD FOOOOOOOD!

photographer of the day

them boys helping out

lucky draw!

prize giving ceremony

with meh beloved boyfriend.

IDK

2011-10-15T21:26:00.002+08:00

i am just feeling mean and nasty right now.

if im giving you an attitude or being mean

well thats too bad then

14th October

2011-10-14T06:24:00.005+08:00

today is actually the first day that I met a wonderful guy.

someone very special and irreplaceable.someone who I am proud to call my boyfriend.

:)

11th Month.

2011-09-28T21:40:00.006+08:00

11 Months.

i love you

celebrated our 11th month in Gardens, Mid Velly.

we ate at a Thai restaurant, i forgot the name.

ah, i look like a geek here.

meh boyfriend looks sooo kiut here.

teeheee.

and i also got this from my babu.

now, i will smell like strawberry all the time.

yummy yummy yummy yummy yummy yummy yummy!

thank you sayang.

i love you.

'Having a boyfriend as your best friend is like the sweetest thing ever. You can chill, you can get jealous sometimes, you can fight and then make up after, have lots of pictures together, making silly faces. It’s just so nice to have that person who will stay in love with you no matter what happens. And he will always be the one you’ll need and nobody can ever replace them.'

catch my drift?

2011-09-09T23:31:00.006+08:00

firstly,

i want people to actually watch and understand this video.

i see some people being friggin hypocrites and ignorant human being and obviously not realizing that they are one of them 'selat' that they despise so much. you tend to hate people who reminds you of your own self and people tend to be someone they say they wouldnt. do realize that GUYs too, can be such ignorant 'selat'.

you know someone is in a relationship or committed to someone, do yourself a favor and back off. its not that hard to do, unless youre a 'selat'. why would you want to get your hands dirty if you know the relationship wont last very long in the first place. why you wanna be such busy bodies and flirting with them or breaking them up in the first place.

its fun?

its exciting?

its adventurous?

just for the experience?

it only shows how pathetic and lifeless you are. and not to mention, stupid. maybe im being very bias about this. no. actually, i am being very bias about this but i dont care. i hate people like this and i find it rude and rather unappropriated for idiots to do such a thing to other people's relationships. why dont you just keep your hands off.

to those who beg to differ :

lets just put it this way, if youre in a relationship with someone very dear and special, and some moronic bafoon decided to interfere and ruined it, obviously you would get pissed off now wouldnt you? well, i would. i might just hunt down both of them i chop their private parts off. maybe not that psychotic, but i suppose the biggest revenge i would do is to let this so called stealer to keep whatever they have stolen from me. great partners cannot be stolen unless they want to be. and it is also a sign from god is it never meant to be.

there's nothing wrong with flirting. but if youre flirting with those who are taken already. youre dumb. go talk to a wall or something. or maybe just go die. im just saying.

if youre in a relationship and youre still flirting with others, youre better of single forever. just do everybody a favor and go die or have 21 pet cats and live alone. be forever alone, seriously. whats the point of being together when you dont even respect your so called other half? whats the point of you being taken when you still act like youre single? you think its okay, but you have no idea what your other half is feeling. mutual respect, trust and commitment is crucial in any relationship.

i strongly value the word 'loyalty'.

i suppose i had to learn this word and to value it the hard way.

growing up with divorced parents, there is one thing i know what i want. when i get married, i will make sure i get married with someone i truly love and he loves me back too. we'll grow old together because i dont want my children to go thru what i had to. life isnt all sunshines, rainbows and butterflies and it sucks when you have to decide who you want to live with. and it sucks when you need one of them the most and theyre not there to be with you.

but i know for sure, my parents did fell in love with one another at one point. tho, they might have argued a lot but i guess no relationship is perfect. half way along the line, some ugly golddigger decided to interfere in my parents relationship and yea, you know how the story flows. i was tad bit disappointed with my dad because he decided to let my mom go. what was more frustrating that is he did it quietly without letting my brother and i know about it until it was too late. it sucks when you just got back home from a vacation without your own parents, to only see an empty closet in your parent's room. more or less, i blame this golddigger for ruining my parent's relationship. not only that, my dad also got married with this ugly golddigger few months before he passed and being a typical golddigger, she just took whatever is his and ciao-ed. lessoned learn, never trust a ho3.

so this my story. to be honest, this is just 1/4 of it. this is the main reason why i hate people interfering with other people's relationship. i believe people who wrecks people relationship now, are people who will be the future home-wreckers. old habits dies hard, but sometimes, old habit never dies. treat everyone as how you want others to treat you. treat your lover as how you want your sibling's lover to treat them.

*mind the language*

if you dont like my point of view and you wanna be all offended by it

Wordless Wednesday ; GG

2011-08-31T20:27:00.003+08:00

10 months.

2011-08-28T13:08:00.007+08:00

28th.

this date, it constantly reminding me of something.

something very valuable and yet so vulnerable to keep,

where no amount of money can buy and time is the price.

i suppose the word im looking for is ;

something short and simple,

yet difficult to explain.

love.

happy 10 months.

i love you sayang.

surprise surprise.

i got this card in the mail.

more reasons to love my boyfriend!

yes, i am the boss.

saturday says 4

2011-08-27T22:33:00.003+08:00

Staying in love.

Sometimes, staying in love is one of the hardest things to do. Especially when you’ve been a couple for a really long time now. Sometimes, the “spark” doesn’t stay that long. It just goes away. What do we mean by “staying” in love? It’s when two people still love each other like it’s their first day as lovers. This is the secret of long-term couples. Those whom we can say that they’ll grow old together. These are the people who know when to swallow their pride for the one they love. Staying in love is one thing that you should protect, because once it starts to fade, it’s hard to bring the sparks back.

via ; Tumblr

Wordless Wednesday ; Theory

2011-08-17T11:19:00.001+08:00

august shmoust.

2011-08-16T20:23:00.006+08:00

sorry that i havent been blogging lately. pretty busy with college and work these days.

and no, not busy with my beloved boyfriend either. he is busy with his own business too.

nevertheless,

degree, has ...... well?

somehow manage to find ways to annoy the living crap out of me.

like literally. tho, im not complaining about the course. dont get me wrong, i love my course, i just dont find the reason why i need to take english again. its rather troublesome and also moronic to do these tests again when i had to suffer doing it for 3 sems during my foundation. they gave me a rather unacceptable reason on rejecting my request to be exempted from this particular subject ; 'this is a degree level of english, your foundation english is not on the same level'. well, excuse me. the syllabus seems to be the same and not to mention the course structure is also very similar. did i mention i had to go through a hassle of doing a bloody research paper during my foundation? that is more what the syllabus had covered and one more thing, the text book for my degree english clearly stated on the front cover 'IELTS for FOUNDATION'.

'YOUR ARGUMENT IS INVALID!'

WHAT THE ZZZZZZZ

i seriously feel like punching somebody's face.

curious, how many times do i need to prove my english is fine? i've already did the english placement test on the FIRST day of orientation, which by the way, i had the highest grade in my course. not only that, i've already did english for college studies during my foundation. isnt that enough already? sheesh. somehow, they know how to make my life miserable in moronic ways that i couldnt possibly think of. i shall have a word with my lecturer and try my best to get exempted from this subject.

i need less stress right now.

haih.

looking on the bright side of the post

i shall stare at this the whole day just to release meh stresses!

16 Things You Didn't Know About Sleep

2011-08-09T00:15:00.006+08:00

via ; Tumblr

OOOOOOOOOOO

this really caught my attention.

#7 ; Dreaming is normal.

people who do not dream generally have personality problems.

so, let say, i dont remember my dreams 98% of the time when i sleep at night but i only remember dreams when i take really short naps. so, how is that possible?

argh, yes. i might just admit that i have personality disorder.

LUL.

and also

#8 ; sleeps position may determine your personality

well, i always sleep like C or E.

it depends really.

rather weird, but OKAY?

hmm.

speaking of sleeping,

i've done some reading on my own about 'sleep paralysis'.

i can relate to this 'phenomena' closely.

well, maybe its because i get it almost every night when i sleep?

thou, its really annoying and it disturbs me when i want to get up from my sleep.

sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeessssssssssssssssh!

most of the description says it is caused by ghost or some sort like that.

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

can i like just go dai naow.

=.=

*no pictures, go google yourself thanks*

just wondering if this is normal for anybody?

SERIOUSLY

well, somehow, my only cure to this unwanted 'phenomena' is to sleep with the lights on every night. yes, i sound like a big baby but its annoying when i cant get up. i got used to sleeping with the lights on i suppose? well, partially is because my night light is not fixed yet. hmmm?

maybe i should get it fix quickly?

.

2011-07-25T16:00:00.001+08:00

TCHT

DEGREE, COME TO ME

The 30 Day Song Challenge - Day 5

2011-07-24T04:02:00.003+08:00

Day 05 – A Song That Reminds You Of Someone

Black and Yellow - Wiz Khalifa

'Yeah ah ha
you know what it is
Black and yellow, black and yellow
Black and yellow, black and yellow
(repeated)

[Chorus]
Yeah ah ha, you know what it is
everything I do, I do it big
Yeah ah ha, screaming thats nothin
when I pulled out of the lot, thats stuntin
reppin my town when you see me you know everything
Black and yellow, black and yellow
Black and yellow, black and yellow
I put it down from my whip to my diamonds
Black and yellow, black and yellow
Black and yellow, black and yellow
Black and yellow, black and yellow

Uh, black stripe, yellow paint
the n-ggas scared of it but them hoes aint
soon as I hit the club look at them hoes face
put the pedal once make the floor shake
suede inside, engine roaring
it’s the big boy you know what I pay for it
and I got the pedal to the metal
got you n-ggas checking game I’m balling out on every level
hear them haters talk but there’s nothing you can tell em
just made a million, got another million on my schedule
no love for em n-gga breaking hearts
no keys, push the start

[Chorus]

[Wiz Khalifa- Verse 2]
Got a call from my jeweler this just in
and b-tches love me cuz Im f-cking with there best friends
not a lesbian but she a freak though
come stay for one night I’m shining all week hoe
I’m sippin (?) and rocking yellow diamonds
so many rocks in my watch I can’t tell what the time is
got a pocket full of big faces
throw it up cuz every n-gga that I’m with tailored

[Chorus]

[Wiz Khalifa- Verse 2]
Stay high like how I’m supposed to do
that crowd underneath them clouds can’t get close to you
and my car look unapproachable
super clean but its super mean
she wanna f-ck with them cats
smoke weed count stacks
get fly and take trips and thats that
real rap, i let her get high if she want she feel
convertible drop feel, ‘87 the top peel back'

LUL.

yes, this song, never fails. NEVER.

reminds me of my boyfriend every time.

EVERY TIME.

seeing how he likes all these rap and hip-hop musics, which sometimes, i dont even know what the heck are they talking about. but, okayyyyy.

sometimes they talk about money, which he loves. they talk about girls, which he love(s)(d)?. they talk about cars, which he loves. they talk about their haters, which he has many and also they talk about gangsterism, which he shouldnt be any way involved.

boy, dont get any smart ideas ah.

but its fine i supposed? i'll be listening to these kinda music whenever im in his car anyways. its better then that 'ITS FRIDAY, FRIDAY. GOTTA GET DOWN ON FRIDAY' song, which is by the way, annoying as hell when he puts it on. his car doesnt have a radio which i find very ironic. he did explained to me why he doesnt have it, but as usual, i forgot. i dont take too much detail in his technical car stuffs. it is after all, his car. well, atleast mine has a radio where he can just turn off my JB music anytime and just listen to the radio. tho, im not complaining or anything. we have very different taste in music, but you'll be surprise what other genre of songs interest we have in common. ahahaha.

and when i finish writing this, he'll be like

'yup, everything i do, i do it big'

or something like that?

Turn Over A New Leaf

2011-07-20T12:43:00.006+08:00

thats right, i've just finish my foundation and now im setting foot into degree.

#LIKE A BOSS

you might be wondering why i have a tourism file on the right side.

well, thats just because im planning to change course.

before i entered foundation, i planned to be a photo journalist. i've always wanted a traveling career since high school, and im pretty sure a regular office job will be a 'no-no' for me. i get bored easily and a normal office job is not too challenging for me. ever since high school, i wanted to take journalism for degree and that is why ive joined Foundation in Communications. dont get me wrong, i love writing but soon after, ive realized i wasnt that interested in media. and if you refer back to the ' Programme Structure - UniSA Bachelor of Journalism : Taylor's University ' it has a lot of media related subjects in it. im not that interested in media and i wont waste my money and time on something i dont have interest in. and so, ive decided to change course and let my passion for writing as a hobby rather than a career.

this is one of my best decision for my future i've made so far.

ive decided to change course to Degree in Tourism.

and now, im taking

Bachelor of International Tourism Management

(Hons) (Event Management)

(I AM SO EXCITED I COULD PEE IN MY PANTS)

#LOL

my course structure ;

im liking what im seeing in this course structure.

im not too sure if anybody knows this but i have a small interest in hospitality and also for event management. i can see that this course if perfect for me because it has everything that i like. not only that, this course im taking has a fair share of communications (public relations) , tourism (traveling, language and culture) , design (product design, concept and theming) , business (accounting, sales and marketing) and also hospitality (international hotels managements).

OH!

did i mention i get to go to France on my last year?

#WINNING

the total cost for degree ;

my brother said this is very expensive for a degree course. well maybe its because the cost of his one sem in Lim Kok Wing is RM8K? plus, he got 50% off as a partial scholarship from Lim Kok Wing. bleh, i think its kinda true. this is rather expensive but i guess this is standard for degrees in Taylors University.

more reasons why im applying PTPTN.

i rather take this loan and pay it off my self than to have my mother working triple the effort to pay off my degree. she's a single mother, she has done enough to pay my high school education in Sri Cemapak and also my brother's degree in Lim Kok Wing University. she deserves her rest now. hopefully, my PTPTN application form will be accepted. i accidently wrote my postcode wrongly in the online form. GAHHH! i hope it will be approved.

im almost done with all of the check list above for PTPTN.

just need to collect my letter of completion settle everything on friday.

these are the documents needed for my PTPTN, which is even hardly half done. rather tiring and troublesome but i suppose it is way easier compare to before. my brother got really pissed off doing this manually and he gave up trying applying for it. now with advance technology, almost everything can be done online.

and since im changing course from communications to tourism, my 30% off no longer be eligible to me. its because it is not transferrable and i need to re-apply again. instead of 30% i'll be following the latest scheme which is 2K only. hmm? i guess its better than nothing?

and now, i dont have to worry to buy any note books for my degree. i found 4 in my car, which is rather weird but ironic? ahahaha. i dont know how most of it get there, but i guess it gives me more reasons for me to be happy and excited for my degree.

this is the approval i've received from the head devision of tourism to change course from communications to tourism.

*mind the english please*

i wish all the best to my friends who is starting degree too.

The 30 Day Song Challenge - Day 4

2011-07-14T00:51:00.003+08:00

Day 04 – A Song That Makes You Sad

Boys Like Girls - Broken Man

'I want to scream, until no sound comes out and you've learned your lesson
I want to swallow these pills to get to sleep
So I don't have to make a bad impression

I need to start to be myself
Cause I'm sick of everybody else

I won't let you bring me down
It's here and now I'm breaking out
I will learn to love again
But I will stand a broken man

I wanna run, but only far enough to make you miss me
I wanna take back all the shit that I have done
But I guess you were better off without me

I need to start to be myself
Cause I'm sick of everybody else

I won't let you bring me down
It's here and now, I'm breaking out
I will learn to love again
But I will stand a broken man

I took one big step and I looked away
And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say
I'm always too late
You never got your story straight
I'm always up late
I think I'm everything you hate

I took one big step and I looked away
And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say
I'm always too late
You never got your story straight
I'm always up late
I think I'm everything you hate

I took one big step and I looked away
And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say
I'm always too late
You never got your story straight
I'm always up late
I think I'm everything you hate

I won't let you bring me down
It's here and now, I'm breaking out
I will learn to love again
But I will stand a broken man

(I took one big step and I looked away, and I thought of all the things that I wanted to say)
I won't let you bring me down
(I'm always too late, you never got your story straight, I'm always up late, I think I'm everything you hate)
It's here and now I'm breaking out
(I took one big step and I looked away, and I thought of all the things that I wanted to say)
I will learn to love again
(I'm always too late, you never got your story straight)
But I will stand a broken man'

somehow, i always listen to this particular song whenever im sad or just feeling down. i'll just put this song on repeat until i feel much much better. im one of those people when im sad, i just listen to a sad song just to make everything better. most of the time, i'll feel much better and just go right to sleep afterwards. but some of times when i dont feel better, i'll just be up all night. thinking and more thinking. the lyrics speaks to me, literally.

Wordless Wednesday ; text

2011-07-13T12:22:00.002+08:00

i woke up this morning and i saw this on my phone.

monday's sunshine

2011-07-11T18:57:00.003+08:00

how i spend my lazy monday with

my part time lover and my full time friend

well, firstly

we renewed our license together in the morning

our old 'P'

*sorry no picture for our full license*

Aizat asked me to delete because his face too kiut

(Y)

i should throw away this sticker now

it looks ugly on my car anyways.

ahahhhahahahahahah!

and also, i want this car soon.

i feel

#LIKEABOSS

whenever im in it

and after that

we spend most of the time at my place

and did some redecorating in my room.

half of my room looks like this now thanks to my sayang.

if you notice, he even arranged everything that he gave me on my shelf.

hehehe, just look at Baby Milo sticking out from the hand frame.

so munsyukkk.

and this is the portrait we did together today.

well, mostly he did everything. i just followed whatever he says.

he bought all the stuffs the day before and he printed our pictures.

everynight, before i sleep i'll look at these pictures.

i'll remember to be thankful for what i have right now.

the whole portrait summarizes our 8 months of being together. and i can say we have been through the worst in our relationship and still, we have each other's back. yes, we might argue a lot these days, but its because we're two very different people with our own personal stand. no matter how many times i argue with him, i'll wont ever leave, not because of some silly argument.

and thats me whenever i argue with him.

just because im short and small.

pfft.

he said he misses the feeling of falling in love because we are in love now. well yes, i know that but honestly, i dont feel that way at all. everyday, somehow in a funny way, i can find many different yet simple reasons why i love him. maybe i love him today because of his attitude of being annoying and a perfectionist. and surely for tomorrow it will be a different reason. it feels like im constantly falling in love with him all over again, just like how we've met the first time. i dont know how to explain it but all im saying is, i love you sayang.

most people, they give up on their relationship because they always see how much further they have to go instead of seeing how far they have achieved with their partner.

the same concept applies to education, money, relationships, and also to self.

yes, all i want to do now is to be happy.

being happy is to be beautiful.

Eblonde

2011-07-07T12:46:00.016+08:00

'Its' original statuses.

i see what you did there Evon Lim.

i wanna see how you lie your way out of this.

youre so pro at it right. good luck to you.

Wordless Wednesday ; You

2011-07-06T23:48:00.007+08:00

saturday says 3

2011-07-02T19:45:00.004+08:00

To all you girls that think you’re fat because you’re not a size 0, you’re the beautiful one, it’s society who’s ugly.
— Marilyn Monroe

8 months.

2011-06-28T21:32:00.006+08:00

we might argue a lot, but maybe its because we are both very different people.

you might not agree with me on certain things, but eventually we will.

i might be utterly stubborn and impossible to handle sometimes,

but i guess that what makes our relationship so strong.

to respect each other's strength and weaknesses,

and to overlook each other's flaws.

hello, i love you.

throughout our 8 months of being together, we had our fair share of happy moments and also sad moments. no doubt, we have our unpleasant fights, my emotional unstableness from time to time and your unpredictable mood swings. through thick or thin, both of us will always be there for each other. i am for sure, this is the beauty of our relationship. we're not only lovers in each other's eyes but also as good friends that we can lean on each other during in times of need. the imperfection we had encountered during our 8 months, has shown me that our relationship is more worthy of a fight compare to before. nobody said keeping a strong and stable relationship was going to be an easy job, but nothing in life is easy. if everything in life was easy, we wouldn't know how to appreciate and cherish what we have now. yes, we might argue about small and senseless things most of the time, but call me crazy, but i just love that feeling when we make up and forget about it soon after. maybe i have gone mad, maybe. somehow, i feel that our relationship is imperfectly prefect in many ways that i cannot describe. we're just that lucky to have each other in our lives because i know i am.

happy 8th months, i love you sayang.

we're not lucky, we're bless. yes.

saturday says 2

2011-06-25T19:52:00.004+08:00

"My favorite thing about you, please don’t get me wrong, how natural it feels five minutes without talking."

-All Ears, The Whitest Boy Alive

The 30 Day Song Challenge - Day 3

2011-06-24T20:50:00.009+08:00

Day 03 – A Song That Makes You Happy

Boys Like Girls - Thunder

'Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didnt want to go, whoa
Today in the blink of an eye
Im holding on to something and I do not know why I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation; what Im feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I dont know, whoa
Today Im on my own
I cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I dont know

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Yeah Im walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think Ill make it out but you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didnt want to go, whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder'

needless for me to say more?

there's many reasons why this song can make me happy.

one of the reason is because this song reminds me of my boyfie.

every time i listen to this song, i just love him even more and i tend to appreciate him better. we might not agree with each other sometimes, and we might argue with each other most of the time but i dont mind. well, i guess that the beauty of our relationship ; respecting each other's differences. no doubt, we are two very different people but somehow we are similar in certain ways. and i can closely relate myself to the song's chorus because i feel like that whenever im with him.

♥

Wordless Wednesday ; Three Trollers

2011-06-22T19:44:00.003+08:00

saturday says 1

2011-06-18T06:42:00.007+08:00

“You can only become truly accomplished at something you love. Don’t make money your goal. Instead pursue the things you love doing and then do them so well that people can’t take their eyes off of you.”

—Maya Angelou

The 30 Day Song Challenge - Day 2

2011-06-17T21:53:00.009+08:00

Day 02 – Your least favorite song

Panic! At The Disco - New Perspective

"I feel the salty waves come in
I feel them crash against my skin
And I smile as I respire because I know they'll never win
There's a haze above my TV
That changes everything I see
And maybe if I continue watching
I'll lose the traits that worry me

Can we fast-forward till you go down on me?
Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
And I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up on getting out of here

Taking everything for granted but we still respect the time
We move along with some new passion knowing everything is fine
And I would wait and watch the hours fall in a hundred separate lines
But I regain repose and wonder how I ended up inside

More to the point, I need to show
How much I can come and go
Other plans fell through
And put a heavy load on you
I know there's no more that need be said
When I'm inching through your bed
Take a look around instead and watch me go

It's not fair, just let me perfect it
Don't wanna live a life that was comprehensive
'cause seeing clear would be a bad idea
Now catch me up on getting out of here
So catch me up I'm getting out of here"

well, for some reason, its still my favorite song.

listening to this song sometimes cheers me up and this song gives me a reality check from time to time. silly, but its true. read the lyrics and you'll understand why. and needless to say, this was one of my first favorite song from P!ATD.

:)

anyways,

sorry guiseeeee. im not in the mood to really write right now. been very very very VERY busy with assignments for the whole month and not to mention finals next month. mehhhhhhh. i should stop blogging before this place turns into a whine feast. but im looking forward for July. well, not because of the holidays but also for my Degree.

i kenot wait lahhhhh

:)

ps; if you realized, i look like a zombie lately. EYEBAGS!

teeheeee!

2011-06-17T21:02:00.002+08:00

just a lovely advice

2011-06-14T14:48:00.008+08:00

got it from Tumblr.

enjoy everyone and have a good day

Health:

Drink plenty of water.

Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.

Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.

Live with the 3 E’s - Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy

Play more games.

Capricorns. :)

2011-06-12T10:59:00.005+08:00

woke up and i got bored so yeah, .... just wanted to kill the time.

was browsing through my twitter page. mehhh.

might go back to sleep after this post.

its a lazy sunday and im just going to put some fact/statement about Capricorn.

odd, maybe i shouldnt believe in these kinda stuff that much, but somehow,

i find them very very VERY accurate about me.

......

nyehh, whatever.

to all the Capricorns out there, enjoy?

1) #Capricorn is extremely outgoing on one side and very quiet and reserved on the other side, like night & day.

2) #Capricorn will fight to the death when we believe in a cause

3) #Capricorn becomes annoyed and agitated very easily.

4) The #Capricorn is passionately loyal, caring, and responsible and thus, we expect the same.

5) The wrong thing you can do is piss a #Capricorn off, we have no problem putting you back in your place.

6) #Capricorn doesn’t commit to anyone unless we know you can give us your all.

7) Procrastination is #Capricorn first name.

8) As #Capricorns we are our worst critics.

9) #Capricorns prefer staying at home instead of going out.

10) A #Capricorn will over think and worry about almost every situation we encounter.

11) #Capricorns are very possessive.

12) #Capricorns are very stubborn and we always get what we want.

13) A #Capricorn is not the type to betray you.

14) As a #Capricorn we need to learn how to let our mind rest.

15) #Capricorns must understand a persons true motives before we completely open up to them.

16) If a #Capricorn doesn't like you we will not be rude we will simply ignore you all together.

17) Hard on the outside soft on the inside = #Capricorn .

18) A #Capricorn will always be honest and will expect the same from you.

19) A typical #Capricorn may appear reckless, but that's only to protect our fragile heart.

20) Patience and trust is the key to gaining a #Capricorns heart.

21) A #Capricorn woman is perfect for the man who likes a challenge, it will take time to get close to her.

22) Even though #Capricorns have big hearts, it is nearly impossible for us to forgive someone once they have crossed us.

23) A #Capricorn never wants to feel like we've lost control.

24) Once you've screwed over a #Capricorn it's nearly impossible to regain our trust.

25) A #Capricorns tend to try to see the good in everyone no matter how ugly that truth may be.

26) #Capricorns love straightforward relationships with no bullshit

27) A #Capricorn can be your best friend or your worst nightmare, but it is totally up to you.

28) When a #Capricorn is angry we tend to speak before we think & it's never pretty.

29) You really have to prove your worthiness with a #Capricorn.

30) #Capricorns are not the type to go looking for things, they just seem to naturally come to us.

31) #Capricorns are very stubborn and are not always nice when things don't go our way.

32) You will win over a #Capricorn with love, honesty, respect.

33) A #Capricorn would prefer the ugliest truth over any lie.

34) A #Capricorn hates showing weakness and feeling vulnerable.

35) A little attention is always nice but normally #Capricorns would prefer not to have all eyes on them.

A #Capricorns most important need is security.

36) #Capricorns make it difficult to get close emotionally because once we let someone in, we do not want to let them go.

37) #Capricorns believe in quality not quantity!

38) #Capricorns are cautious when it comes to relationships and will not make a commitment until they feel you are truly worthy.

39) Patience will win over a #Capricorn rushing will just ruin things with us.

40) A #Capricorn sets very high standards for themselves.

41) #Capricorns have a very silly sense of humor that most people don't expect.

42) #Capricorns can be extremely stubborn at times.

43) #Capricorns judge people by their character.

44) You will NEVER completely understand a #Capricorn.

45) #Capricorns are very faithful to their relationships and committed to their promises.

46) One thing a #Capricorn loves is our privacy!

47) #Capricorns are very respectful people but will only show as much respect that is given to us.

48) #Capricorns will offer you a long lasting, real, loyal relationship.

49) #Capricorns deep inside are romantic and loving but it takes the right person to expose this.

50) #Capricorns are very respectful, very cautious, and very honest.

51) A #Capricorns feelings can be easily hurt and we will respond quickly and bluntly cruel. Choose your words wisely.

52) #Capricorns tend to get turned off by people who need too much attention.

53) A #Capricorn moves ahead in life with just one aim to get to the top.

54) #Capricorns generally have big hearts, but usually have hard times letting people get to know them.

55) Even though a #Capricorn likes keeping the peace, piss us off & we will fight fire with fire!

56) #Capricorns believes a solid relationship should be build on honesty & trust or we don't want to deal with you.

57) #Capricorns are surprisingly playful, but only with the right people.

58) #Capricorns are often times self-contained and painfully shy, when warmed up you start to see our true self.

59) #Capricorns can be very mean and downright evil, but only when provoked. If you make us mad you really better watch out!

60) #Capricorns have very little tolerance for lazy people.

61) You've never met a control freak until you've met a #Capricorn.

62) #Capricorns are very loyal to those they care for.

63) When it come to relationships a #Capricorn wants the finer things in life that money cannot buy.

64) Tick a #Capricorn off and you've earned an enemy for life, no matter how small the issue may seem #Capricorns never forget.

65) #Capricorn = a quiet and calm person, not the flashy flamboyant type.

66) #Capricorns are often times misunderstood, but their heart is always in the right place.

67) #Capricorns are hard to reach emotionally only because they fear being hurt by others.

68) Never underestimate the things #Capricorns are capable of.

69) As a #Capricorn stop being so hard on yourself, everything always falls into place for you anyway.

70) Although a #Capricorn may not mean it they can be extremely cold when being sarcastic.

71) Although the #Capricorn may seem to be a bit cold, they have warm hearts.

72) A #Capricorn really appreciates loyalty.

73) #Capricorns are strong believers of "Actions speak louder than words.".

74) The deep love that a #Capricorn woman has is hard to find in other women. Her love is like no other you've ever had.

75) A #Capricorn may come off as arrogant but that's not the case, they just exude confidence.

76) A #Capricorn prefers a serious and committed relationship.

77) A #Capricorn is often shy and reserved but only because they are frightened of rejection and the possibility of being hurt.

78) If your trying to impress a #Capricorn do don't show off you material items, show us who you are on the inside.

79) A #Capricorn is very independent because they know their capabilities and therefore they rarely trust others to finish things for them.

80) A #Capricorn female looks for security, authority, respect, and a higher position in everything they do.

81) A #Capricorn has to be prepared for everything, be it a business venture or an emotional commitment.

82) One of the most admirable traits of a #Capricorn is their ability to submit and adapt.

83)#Capricorns tend to get angrier at small things rather than big ones.

84) #Capricorns are wary and cautious around people the don't know, preferring not to mingle, thus attract people who do not understand them.

85) Remember when you marry a #Capricorn woman, you marry her family and relatives too.

86) Love is a serious business to a #Capricorn. You have learned from experience that nothing comes easily.

87) A #Capricorn always calculate the risks; no mater how attracted they are to you.

88)#Capricorns protect their reputations and emotions by being prudent.

89) Frank, and straightforward conversation is the best way to deal with a #Capricorn. Understand that a #Capricorn can get stubbornly attached.

90) Recognize that from time to time, your #Capricorn friend might have a tendency to be melancholy or pessimistic.

91) As a #Capricorn, if you don't give yourself downtime and a chance to unwind, you will eventually blow up emotionally.

92) As a #Capricorn, while reaching your goals you need to learn how to relax periodically and have some spontaneous fun.

93) As a #Capricorn, a person needs to be thick-skinned to deal with the likes of you.

94) If a #Capricorn really respect you and dub you a “worthwhile cause,” you may feel like royalty — because they'll treat you that way.

95) A #Capricorn, will put a kernel of an idea into your head and then watch, wait, and see what you do with it.

96) If you make outrageous promises, or even tiny promises, that you do not keep, no #Capricorn can take you seriously.

97) In life #Capricorns, keep on going, rain or shine, slowly and surely they will reach the top.

98) As a #Capricorn, when someone needs a dose of reality you are just the person to supply it.

99) As a #Capricorn, remember being overly analytical doesn't protect you much as you think.

100) #Capricorns, can be inexorably blunt about what they think and what they want.

The 30 Day Song Challenge - Day 1

2011-06-02T22:12:00.015+08:00

Day 1 - Your Favourite Song

Hoobastank - If I Were You

'You seem to find the dark when everything is bright
You look for all thats wrong instead of all thats right
Does it feel good to you to rain on my parade
You never say a word unless its to complain
Its driving me insane

If i were you
Holding the world right in my hands
The first thing I'd do
Is thank the stars for all that i have
If i were you

Look what surrounds you now
More than you ever dreamed
Have you forgotten just how hard it used to be
So whats it going to take
For you to realize
It all could go away in one blink of an eye
It happens all the time

So whats it going to take
For you to realize
It all could go away in one blink of an eye
It happens all the time

If i were you
Holding the world right in my hands
The first thing I'd do
Is thank the stars above
For the ones I love
Take a breath and enjoy the view
Live the life that I've wanted to
If i were you'

the lyrics says it all,
the song is mostly about appreciating life.

i can really relate to the lyrics because i always think negatively about most stuffs in my life. negative stuffs like how short i am or how chubby i can be. not to mention sometimes i dont get good grades or in general, a kind person to others. and its rather true that most of the time, i only open my mouth to complain rather then to say something positive about anything. for sure, its not nice, but i came to realize how my being was like lately. and to be honest, im not liking to what i've become. realizing mistakes is the first step in changing self. im glad, i've realized it. lately, ive been trying hard to not complain about anyone or anything. although its hard, because there is always something bothering me. i cant say that ive changed much, but im trying my best to change for the better me.

whenever i listen to this song, it reminds me how blessed my life is compare to others. yes, i might not be as pretty as some people, or as rich as some people and i might not have a father figure in my life anymore. but somehow im content with what i have in my life right now. i dont ask for more and i dont ask for less. whatever comes to me, i'll just receive it with my hands open. i dont ask for much, i just want to be loved by the people who are important in my life, get good grades for my studies and be a successful person in the future and also to be a good person to everyone. but no doubt, it would be nicer to have some luxury in life. i used to have it all, well that was before my dad's passing. but i cant see everything in that point of view anymore. but, i still got it, only in many different ways that i couldnt imagine. maybe its not much in other's eyes but its enough for me to pull through the rain.

appreciating things we get is hard, but appreciating people in our life is much more harder. i dont believe in the saying 'you dont know what you got till its gone'. truth is, you do know what you got, its just that you never thought that you would lose it. well, i dont want to make that same mistake again to my only family. as much as i am a disappointment to them, but i will promise to make them proud some day, just not right now. i realized that the only reason why i dont have much break down during my high school years compare to my college years was because i was too occupied with my sports. indeed, sports made me happy and as much as i wanted it to cover a big hole in my heart. well, took me a while to realize that it was utterly impossible.

lately, i been having a lot of ups and down lately. but im lucky enough to have someone listening to it and comforting me every now and then. i try hard to not rant online especially on twitter, but rather to tell everything and how i feel to my special someone. it might seem unfair to him, but that is why im more grateful to have him around.

one the greener side of the post, i cant wait for my hair to grow longer. sooo in love with it. well, it might not be perfect, but im just so happy my hair is not that messy anymore. :))

new hair?

2011-05-29T20:49:00.007+08:00

well, today i just got my hair fix. well, you could pretty much say i did something to my hair. hopefully my hair wouldnt be in such a mess and havoc. i cut my fringe to the side and i also did some treatment because my hair was really dry. :/

well, i hope my hair doesnt go haywire soon.

this is how my hair looks like now.

i do hope my natural curls will stay.

i mean, i dont like my hair to be flat and too straight.

thats all from me for today.

happy sunday everybody!

longer.

2011-05-26T23:58:00.005+08:00

mehhhhhhhh!

lately, ive realized that my hair is in a mess.

i want longer and nicer hair please please please PLEASE!

i wanttttttt!

but i need to wait for my hair to grow. haih.

untitle

2011-05-25T03:11:00.008+08:00

im not raging nor complaining. tho, maybe when people read this, they tend to imagine me being angry and just complain about everything. so no, this is not a complain nor a 'rant' session for me. im just writing whatever i feel at the moment, in a rather calm and just plain tone.

i might look like an attention seeking little sucker or maybe a saddist with such a sad life. well, yeah. think whatever you want. different people have different way of thinking and also perspective.

there is no right words for what i am feeling.

yes, for the past few months, there has been ups and downs in my life. you could say i've been experiencing one of the worst months in my life. what was so simple become so complicate and now, i find it impossible to manage. you might say ;

'youre life is not that bad as you think it is'

'youre just making everything look more drastic, typical you'

'you complain and rage too much, calm down'

'i dont care about you and your stupid life'.

i can pretty much say, you dont know anything about it and i tend to keep it that way. youre not the one in my shoes, so no, you dont know how i really feel and you dont know what ive been through. nobody does. really, why does it bother people much anyways? im not that im too important to people because i feel that i, myself is unimportant to me.

drastic changes occurred and it is beyond of my control.

how so you handle a situation which is beyond your control? really, enlighten me with a solution please. i would like to learn about that.

oh, wait?

....

no, you should stop and dont give me the answer. keep it to yourself because i know myself too well. when you give me a solution, i might hear it and maybe even listen to it, but no, i wont do it. and obviously the million dollar question would be ;

WHY?

if i could answer that myself, i wouldnt be in this stupid mess in the first place.

or maybe im just in denial.

......

yea, lets just stick to that theory.

sure, i might be a communication student, but frankly speaking, i have my own communication problems. its rather disappointing because communicating is suppose to be my strength and not my weakness.

i wont deny the fact that i dont have a good relationship with the people who are important to me. i wont deny the fact that i do have a problem receiving feedbacks and also im very in denial. i wont deny the fact that i do care what other people think about me. i wont deny the fact that i dont have my priority straight. i wont deny the fact that im not the smartest child nor the pretty one in other's eyes. i wont deny the fact that my life is full of unnecessary events and dramas. and i wont deny the fact that maybe in general i am not a good person i thought i was,

well, im not being good to the ones that really matters to me.

yes, i admit. i am just an ungrateful child who's spoiled rotten. i get whatever i want when i want it, and when i dont get what i want, i get into a fit. everybody has to follow my orders and my emotions because i always want to be right and i am always so righteous about everything. everything i do is correct, whatever other say is wrong. everything according to me, myself and i. i dont deserve anything i get right now because i feel that i dont deserve anything from anyone. i feel like im such a burden to people that it makes their life harder when im around. i feel that i dont deserve love that i am receiving now, because clearly, they are giving me so many yet i return so little. eventually, people will just get tired and just stop trying. so, tell me. what makes you think i dont know. what makes you think i dont realize how my being is. really, i dont need people telling me how am i like, because i know it myself. i am immature, self-centered, disobedient, angry, and always so emotional.

'sometimes, i dont even know how to talk to you'

as always, i am impossible to deal with. i wouldnt blame people for leaving me because clearly, nobody understands me and maybe its because i dont take the effort to dont understand them. yes, people come and go. people leave as they please. people dont care. sad fact, but i've learn that since i was bloody born. sometimes, i dont find the point of keeping a good relationship with anybody because at the end of the day, i would just destroy it into pieces and wouldnt make an effort to put it back together. well, maybe its because i've proven myself right, over and over again. being right all the time doesnt mean its a good thing either. it just made my belief changed to facts.

i know what i am suppose to do. i should relax and chill. understand people's feeling and people would do the same to mine. i should change my attitude towards everything and grow the hell up. its easy for people to tell me to calm down and chill. everything is easier said than done and everyone knows damn well that actions speaks louder then words. so no, i am not the type of person that would just let things go and forget about it in a split second. i might not talk about it, but that doesnt mean these thoughts and feeling does not exist anymore. normal people's feelings can just come and go, but not mine. how can i change myself when i've been like this all my life. its easier to move a mountain rather to change someone's attitude. people dont question the reason towards my actions. people dont question towards the motif or even wonder what would trigger such untamed hate which has been growing inside me for a very long time.

yes, its rather sad to say but i am a person that would keep grudges for a very long time. eventually, these grudges just grew inside of me and more or less, and i became more bitter and bitter by the second. its rather stupid to keep grudges, i know that very well but i am a sensitive person and people's actions and words can really hurt my feelings. yes, everybody is sensitive in some ways, but most people know how to cover it with their ego, pride, wealth, power, beauty or anything that makes them feel stronger and immune to treats. but for me, i dont have much. im not the riches person in the world, i might have an ego, but ive seen others with 10 layers of bricks, polished and without a scratched compare to mine. i dont have much power because im just some ordinary naive immature little girl and no, i dont have beauty of perfection. im just, normal, average, me.

so what do i have to defend myself.

how about, NOTHING.

oh, goodie.

ive got troubled thoughts and self-esteem to match, what a catch.

with more insults and self-beating i do on a daily basis, i am having a rather unhealthy and more to say depressing life. i keep telling myself that i am better then this, but no. the odds are against me now. eventually, i would break into billion of pieces and just mentally and possibility emotionally die. i wonder how i kept myself from thinking about these things for the past years. im a late bloomer i suppose. ive always been the late bloomer, and im always the last one.

sure, i'll stop being a sour-puss now and just bloody grow up. the only person responsible of my being is me, myself and i. i should be a mature adult and bloody handle it myself.

i just feel sorry to my idiotic self and the good people who has been tolerating my shyts.

i'll find my way soon enough.

and i am sorry.

sometimes, sorry seems to be the hardest word to say these days.

haih

self reminder

2011-03-23T14:38:00.006+08:00

via Tumblr

Let’s grow old together… beginning with today.
Let’s work slowly with each other and build a relationship that we can both enjoy being a part of.
Let’s share love and understand that neither of us is perfect; we are both subject to human frailties.
Let’s hold each other close and whisper though the night—pledging our love, honoring our commitment.
Let’s encourage each other to pursue our dreams, even when we’re weary from trying.
Let’s expect the best that we both have to give and still love when we fall short of our expectations.
Let’s be friends and respect each other’s individual personality and give one another room to grow.
Let’s be candid with each other and point out strengths and weaknesses.
Let’s understand each other’s personal philosophy, even if we don’t agree.
Let’s lie awake long into the night sharing our innermost secrets.
Let’s be friends as well as lovers.
Let’s laugh at time and plan with each other and wonder how we ever got along without this love we’ve found.
Let’s never take for granted these moments that we’ve shared, but always be reminded of how intensely we have learned to live, how completely we have learned to love.
Let’s grow old together… and look back on life and smile.

I love you for what you are,

but I love you yet more for what you are going to be.

100 facts about me

2011-03-21T18:26:00.003+08:00

100FactsAboutMe

via twitter

i talk to myself sometimes. technically its not weird at all. scientifically, it helps you to remember stuff easily.

main reason why i was so competitive is because i was brought up with an older brother and i played sports with my dad.

i love seafood. i love seafood. I LOVE SEAFOOD. im more to the crab, cockle, prawn and octopus kinda person not fishy.

my favourite colours are blue and black. sometimes purple and pink depending on the shade of colour. i hate bright pink.

i was born in Ipoh but when i was 3 years old [not sure] we moved to Kuala Lumpur and i was raised up there after that.

been studying in private schools since primary but when i was 11, that was the only time i was in a government school.

i dont believe in love at first sight. its stupid and pure crap. fyi, thats not called love, thats what we called lust.

i believe in Karma. what goes around, comes around. be good to people, and people will be good to you. thats karma.

i also believe in Law of Attraction. be positive and you'll received positive feedback. positive attracts positive.

#10

took piano lessons when i was younger and i hated every minute of it. now im picking up guitar lessons, still learning.

#11

most of the time, i prefer staying home. but i wouldnt mind going out once in a while with a certain group of friends.

#12

my name says it all, i am that short. to be exact, im 150cm tall. very short if you wanna compare me with my brother.

#13

i hate it when i received stupid spams on my BBM. really, are you people that lifeless to spam my BBM? go get a life.

#14

i get bad sleeping disorder during my holidays. i would sleep all day and stay up all night and do absolutely nothing.

#15

if im not spamming your timeline on twitter or spamming your dashboard on tumblr, it means that im busy having a life.

#16

when i was younger, i used to be an anime freak. i would watch all the animes on axn and memorize the japanese songs.

#17

i shifted to korean music when i was in my early teen years. the first korean song ive heard was rising sun by dbsk.

#18

i can be a pc game freak sometimes. my all time favourite games are COD, L4D, L4D2 and also MMORPG Ragnarok Online.

#19

i have no fashion sense at all. rather depressing really and at times i wished i had an older sister to look after me.

#20

i dont think im a materialistic type. i dont own a Chanel or LV hangbag. maybe when it comes to phones and lappy i am?

#21

no doubt that i am an angry child. maybe its because of some very cruel events happened when i was young and naive.

#22

an angry child is always a hungry child. you should probably ask me if i ate already first. i get cranky really quick.

#23

i dont normally eat breakfast. its because i dont have time to eat my breakfast. im always rushing to school/college.

#24

i dont like being alone yet i dont want anybody to disturb me. i want my private time and i also dont wanna feel lonely

#25

i was enrolled in NS and i did survived it with flying colours. had the opportunity to be the camp's Quarter Master.

#26

i love cute stuffs. im immature and childish at times but i cant control myself when i see cute stuffs like a Domokun!

#27

im not a smoker, but my whole family smokes. technically, im a secondhand smoker and scientifically, i'll die faster.

#28

this is the number that my boyfriend and i officially got together. 28102010 is the exact date. i love my sayang. :)

#29

i am paranoid and sensitive most of the time. and i am the type of person that would keep grudges for a very long time.

#30

i have the freedom to go out anytime i want to. but instead of hitting the clubs, i rather chill at rasta with friends.

#31

im studying Foundation in Mass Communication in Taylors Lakeside and im might take Degree in Tourism, Event Management.

#32

i love the shisha flavour blue mist mint. and the only place i would go shisha with this flavour is actually rasta.

#33

my shoe size is actually 6. very depressing because i cant wear any of my mom's shoes. her feet is size 4. very wasted.

#34

a lot of people like to judge me base on my looks. i might not be skinny and a tall tip top model but i love my assets.

#35

i find Joshua Lam annoying on twitter but i love you granpa. i miss our highschool days and youre still so annoying.

#36

i've known Ashraf Aman since form 3 and he's calling me a stalker just because i twit something thats relates him. LAME.

#37

i used to collect pokemon and digimon cards when i was young. but i lost interest in it and threw all the cards away.

#38

as much as i hate dramas, my life is full of it. intentionally and unintentionally. so sickening most of the time.

#39

i have been using my macbook since i was form 4. havent changed, upgraded or updated anything in this lappy. too lazy

#40

i own an ipod nano but its pretty much dead now. after i got my own car i havent even used or even touch it.

#41

i get pissed off easily, and maybe i cool down easily too? depends on who actually. sometimes i just wanna kill someone

#42

i dont like scary movies. i prefer animation, comedy and also chic flicks. but i can still bare with action movies.

#43

my dad wanted me to be a doctor, but i have no interest in science and maths. but i wanted to do sports as a career.

#44

i can play any kind of team sports. im only bad a swimming sports. but i do know how to swim just a little slow at it.

#45

in form 4, i joined my school musical production West Side Story. i acted as one of the characters named Anybodys.

#46

i own a bantal busyuk since i was born [unsure]. in good and bad times, my bantal busyuk has always been there for me.

#47

i love the band Panic! At The Disco. very interesting band indeed. often misunderstood by others, but i love this band.

#48

my 19th birthday was the best birthday i ever had so far. thanks to my boyfriend and also some really close friends.

#49

when i was 11, i won first place for long jump competition in my school. and being the shortest contestant it was cool.

#50

i represented my school in the mssd competition for long jump in Ipoh. i injured my leg but i manage to win 3rd place.

#51

in highschool, i played netball and my position was GD. rather unexpected position that was given because i was short.

#52

i played futsal and also basketball when i was in high school. again, represented my school for competitions.

#53

i dont like texting nowadays because im using a Blackberry Storm 1. the phone's keypad can be very annoying sometimes.

#54

im such a sweet tooth. if you wanna bribe me, it better be something really sweet and not to mention expensive too.

#55

i like a guy who knows how to take care of themselves. but i really love a guy who knows how to take care of me too. :)

#56

i dont have an eye for details and im not ocd. its safe to say that im not a perfectionist or a clean freak either.

#57

i love my boyfriend. i love my boyfriend. i love my boyfriend. i love my boyfriend. i love my boyfriend. MINE MINE MINE

#58

the first thing that i do when i wake up, i on my lappy and open my facebook, twitter, formspring, and tumblr page.

#59

yes, im a stalker. i stalk people for a living. actually, i prefer calling it research. you can never be too careful ;)

#60

i love Xiah Kim Junsu from DBSK. he is such a cutie, i swear. i would wanna meet him someday. hopefully i will. :)

#61

i grew up watching Bill Nye The Science Guy, Kenan and Kel, Kablaam, Powerpuff Girls, Rugrats and also All That.

#62

another reason why im such an angry child is because i learned it from Ask Ashley from the All That show on Nickelodeon

#63

my name Shaheila was given to me by mother because she love an awesome singer Sheila Majid. guess her full name. ;)

#64

my middle name was given by my dad. it is the name of my great grandmother. fact is, i dont like my middle name. ;/

#65

i hate it when people miss pronounced my name. its pronounced as Sha-he-la with a silent 'i'. get that straight people.

#66

when im playing handball, the only thing that im thinking about when i wanna throw the ball is my hater's face. (Y)

#67

i miss my dad. its been 9 years since he has truly left us. i miss him so much. i always wish i could do something.

#68

i wished i was a little bit taller. if only i was a little bit taller. maybe i wouldnt be this short and fat looking.

#69

ignorance is bliss. i guess what i dont know, wont hurt me. there are some things in this world should be left unsaid.

#70

i used to have pets. its all gone now. my mom threw all my cats away and i gave my sugar glider to my brother's friend.

#71

i have bad anger management. i guess i got that from my dad. i find it hard to let go of things which is so unhealthy.

#72

i hate it when people type in stupid short form like 'aq x tau yeew' or even TyP3 LiK3 TH!$. very mentally retarded.

#73

i get depressed easily when my friends dont talk to me or when i dont have nobody to talk with. feeling forever alone.

#74

i've learn that people are going to disappoint you one way or another. its devastating when you least expected it.

#75

im straight forward and i can be very rude at times. atleast im being me and not a two faced freak unlike some people.

#76

i guess im very bitter in the inside because people have been giving me crap and apparently i've been tolerating it.

#77

if youre wondering why i call my brother a fat walrus is because of the way he sneezes and the way he eats and sleeps.

#78

nick names that people had given me, shorty, pendek, itik, satay, tapir, sleeping cat, squirrel, angry child, bipolar.

#79

i used to take karate-do classes in school when i younger. i wished i finished it till the end. i stop at purple belt.

#80

i hate it when people act like they are so cool and hot stuffs. but fact is, they are just losers who wanna be hot. E!

#81

you could say that i was given this talented and possibly sinned to change people's mood even when im not trying to.

#82

i love history, geography, living skills and art class when i was in highschool. english in malaysia is a piece a cake.

#83

my spm forecast was 8A's but i ended up with 3A's. i hate the grading system. it was unreasonable and down right dumb.

#84

when i was a little kid, i used to eat the milo powder. i was lazy to heat up the water, i ended up eating the powder.

#85

i used to bring my skipping rope and batu seremban to school and play with my classmates. we played ice and water too.

#86

yes, i am vain at times. i like taking pictures when im with my cousins and thats why we call ourself the vain cousins.

#87

the only reason why i dont do bad stuffs to people who deserves it is because i believe in karma, sooner or later.

#88

i love DBSK. they are by far the best korean boy band ever created. i just love them. old school all the way babyy.

#89

i love my family. i love my momma, i love my brother. and i love my daddy. i love them all. so grateful to have them.

#90

im the type of person that wouldnt share much info to people in this world. i would rather keep most things to myself.

#91

i miss working in TGi Fridays Garden. i miss my friends there. i miss doing birthday songs for guest and i miss working

#92

i never cleaned my room. my closet is messy as ever and i dont even bother making my bed when i wake up in the morning.

#93

nowadays when i meet someone i go 'whatsup dude' just to keep things clear that i wanna be friends any nothing more.

#94

i like to say 'cube teke' to my friends when there is nothing to guess about. i only did that because i was dead bored.

#95

to be honest, i check out hot chicks too. i like the ones with nice curves and nice round assets. so super duper yummy.

#96

i shower late at night sometimes. but only when i feel really stinky, sticky and very uncomfortable for me to sleep.

#97

i never really got out from the house till i got my car. before this i would just stay at home and surf the web 24/7.

#98

i've learn that sometimes its those small small things you do for someone you love that can really mean a lot to them.

#99

i still dont know what i wanna do in life. but, hopefully, tourism is my thing. planning events sounds very interesting

#100

im still learning how to be a better person in life. looking at things from another perspective is what i really need.

daddy's little girl

2011-03-17T02:20:00.011+08:00

the one thing that everybody on this surface of earth needs to learn,

love and cherish every moment with your loved ones.

you dont know what you've got till its gone.

when i was 6 years old.

in the morning, when i hear your alarm clock ringing, i would get out from bed and switch it off for you. i would wake you up by bugging you and you always complain you wanted another 5 minutes to sleep. within minutes you dozed off to sleep and snore loudly as always. after i got ready for school, i would eat my breakfast and wait for you to come down to send me to school because i didnt want to take the bus like what my brother did. when the driver came to the house, i sat at the back of your police car and constantly and annoyingly wanted to play with the car's siren. as you drop me off in school, you never forget to give me a big hug and also a kiss on my cheeks. and before leaving you'll tell me that you love me and i replied i love you too. after school, i would always wait for you to come home after a long day of work. when i heard the wooden door open, i would run up to you really quick and give you a big kiss on your cheeks and hug you really tight to make you forget about your stressful day at work and that never failed to make you smile. every night we would have dinner together on the dining table and talk about my day at school and you would talk about your day at work. after dinner was done, we would watch the telly in the living room until it was my bedtime. on weekends we always go out for dinner and eat all of my favourite food, and sometimes maybe yours and also along's. and you'll buy me toys that i've always wanted and sometimes we would go shopping for clothes and more toys. we spend our quality time together playing badminton and table tennis and that is where my competitiveness came from. i've always tried to win all the matches against you. sometimes, i win, and sometimes you win. at night, i would sleep in your room next to you because i refused to sleep alone in my room. i was scared to sleep alone even though you bought me a nightlight for me to sleep at night. yet, i didnt want to sleep in my room because i wanted to sleep beside you. i felt save and warm when i sleep beside you. some nights when i really cant sleep, you would hug me and serenade me to sleep even if you were dead tired.

i miss everything about you.

i miss your hugs and kisses. i miss holding your hands and i miss playing with your really big tummy. i miss your voice and i miss your laughters. i miss your lame jokes. i miss your smiles and i miss seeing your face. i miss hearing you say i love you baby to me in the morning and before i go to bed. i just miss you. words cannot describe how much i miss you.

i miss you.

i guess this is a picture of dad before he got married.

im guessing its one of dad's first pictures when he started work as a police officer in Ipoh.

one of my favourite pictures of him by the way.

and that is my older brother.

i still remember those red tiger pajamas of his.

it really sickens me when i see other people who still have their dads around and not cherishing them. please, you'll only have one dad and one mom in your life time, so dont be such an arrogant and ignorant child and cherish what you've got. just because they dont give you what you want at some point, it doesnt give you the rights to hate them or say your life is full of crap. why dont you just shut the heck up and grow up you inconsiderate child. youre so bless with many stuffs, why cant you just be a grateful and thankful child. i would kill or trade money just to get my dad back, but lets face the fact, that is never going to happen. i've learn how to move on with my life without having a dad around for 9 years now. no doubt, its hard. its harder when you've been spoiled with many choices when you were young and all of a sudden, you have limited choices. and when you truly believe that the person will never ever leave your side but at the end, all of those promises and thoughts was broken and shattered into pieces, thats devastating.

for sure, im not the only one going through this, but people should open their eyes and realize this before its too late. people should cherish important people in their lives. fact is, you do know what you've got, you never think that your going to lose it anytime soon. never take someone for granted even for just a second. mark my words, you will regret it.

seriously, when was the last time you said 'i love you' to your mom and dad and really mean it? when was the last time you had a heart-to-heart conversation with them? when was the last time you spend quality time with them? when was the last time you were really thankful to have them in your life?

i love you dad, and miss you so much.

Panic At The Disco

2011-03-09T01:43:00.008+08:00

'oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention'

'there's nothing wrong with just a taste of what you've paid for'

'its much better to face these kinda of things, with a sense of poise and rationality'

'i missed your skin when you were east, you clicked your heels and wished for me'

'you come along because i love your face, and i'll admire your expensive taste'

'but if you talk you better walk or you better keep your mouth shut'

above are some of the lyrics from Panic! At The Disco

and from the tittle of the post, i am going to write about them.

i find this band very interesting. sadly, this band didnt really catch my eyes entirely when i first heard their song 'I Write Sins, Not Tragedies'. maybe its because i didnt understand the song and also their video clip kinda freaked me out a bit. but i must say, P!ATD is a very unique band. they use rather unusual words or uncommon words that we use in our daily life. in their lyrics you have to think twice or possibility a billion times just to understand the whole song. and yes, i did spend a lot of my time understanding the lyrics clearly. researching about their lyrics and the main purpose of the song. in their songs, they write about mostly about their experiences in life. and not to mention they make really catchy songs. i feel like some of their lyrics is an awesome machine gun which you can shoot anybody indirectly and unconditionally.

noh?

;)

i guess their first album 'A Fever You Cant Sweat Out' is still the best because most of my favourite songs is from that album. one of my favourites is 'London Beckoned Songs About Money By Machines' and also 'The Only Difference Between Martyrdom And Suicide Is Press Coverage'. did you know that they had a little story line with 3 songs? maybe you do, but i doubt so that many people knew about this. or not? er..?

well

the sequel starts from

'Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Cloths Off'

in this song, its about a girl who cheated on the guy when he was out of town. he found out when his friends told him about it. he got pissed off and broke up with her. he killed himself after knowing about the affair.

'then think of what you did and how i hope to god he was worth it'

he's asking her if the fling was worth it to wreck their relationship. it was a one night stand between the girl and the fling. eventually, she learn that being unfaithful to the guy only gave her nothing but problems and she knew that she would rather be with him than anyone else.

the water in the tank represents their life span. so, when the tank is empty, they die. the fish in a person's tank in the video means how many people they have slept with. as you can see, in the video, the girl has a lot of fishes in her tank while the guy only had one.

this song is about Ryan Ross being cheated by his ex girlfriend by the way.

'But Its Better If You Do'

in the second part of the trilogy, the guy is trying to forget about the girl by going to a strip club. ironically, the girl was at the strip club with him but they didnt get upset with each other. instead both of them were happy and they had a pretty good ending. maybe this is what they both wanted, a spark or something like that in their life.

'but im afraid that i, well i may have faked it, and i wouldnt be caught dead in this place'

he doesnt want to be there at the first place. he thinks that he's making a wrong choice and he shouldnt be doing this. he feels that he doesnt belong there because he doesnt see himself as one of the 'strip joint veteran' there.

when you add 'Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Cloths Off' with 'But Its Better If You Do' it forms a quote from the movie ; Closer.

not only that, when you listen to the end bit of 'But Its Better If You Do' it sounds almost similar to the beginning of 'I Write Sins Not Tragedies'.

as from the first song, this song was also about Ryan Ross's ex girlfriend. in an interview, Ryan said that he went to a strip club after he had broke up with his ex girlfriend. he didnt really wanted to be there, but he was there just to get over her.

'I Write Sins, Not Tragedies'

the last bit of the trilogy is about the guy planning to get married with the girl. this is from the perspective of groom. on the wedding day, he over heard the brides maid and waiter gossiping about his wife to be. at the end, he found out about the girl having another lover and he calls off the wedding.

'i'd crime in with a 'havent you people ever heard of, closing the god damn door?!'

no, it's much better to face these kinda of things with a sense of poise and rationality'

on the first sentence, its the bridegroom saying to himself to defend his bride but on the second sentence its his conscience telling him to face the problem instead of being in denial and not knowing any facts.

'i mean technically our marriage is saved'

his conscience is saying that the action taken had save the groom from making the biggest mistake in his life by marrying the wrong girl. he had just save his own life from being depressed and also manage to avoid major suffering if he found out about the affair after they got married.

the narrator in this video is playing as the groom's conscience by the way.

well this is my own interpretation of this trilogy based with some research of cause. maybe there's no obvious connection between the 3 songs but it is related to one another. clearly the videos of the songs doesnt seem to be connected but its the song's content that connects it to one another. overall, i find this trilogy fascinating and also different because they could have easily made 3 videos connected to one another. but they choose to make the videos to have their own plot and story line but at the same time they are connected to each other by the content of the song itself. and not to mention, i love how each video's choreography is very artsy partsy and also mind wondering. i got very very VERY distracted on how they choreograph the whole video. its very eye catching and it will make your imagination run wild with unanswered questions like why do that in their videos and what does it really mean.

one of the songs that i love from the album 'Pretty. Odd'

yes.

this song.

i love this song.

i just love it.

if you listen to this song and understand the true meaning of it, you'll be blown away. blown away. BLOWN AWAY I TELL YOU. you wouldnt expect that this song had a deeper meaning to it. this song is more of a riddle which needs to be solved in order to understand it completely. when i first heard this song, i didnt understand it at all. AT ALL. i had to do my research in order to understand it fully. thank you google! i like how this video's choreography is very calm and relaxing but at the same time, it sends a strong message to the viewers. notice that their lyrics is almost everywhere in the scene of the video. they are emphasizing on the words or the lyrics of the song strongly. im guessing that they want their fans to have their own understanding of the lyrics and reveal their own point of view of the message that the band is trying to give them.

as you can notice there's only 2 guys in the video. its kinda sad that Ryan Ross and also Jon Walker had left the band. there's so many other interpretation on this song but i really think that this song is about the band moving forward without Ryan and Jon on board. what they really needed was a new perspective for the band i suppose? and, and, and i love this song so much.

and yes, this is the original sound track for the movie ; Jennifer's Body

and im having a big hunch that the band's latest song 'The Ballad Of Mona Lisa' is more of a closure for Ryan and Jon's departure from the band. in the video clip, there is some scene that is very very similar to 'I Write Sins Not Tragedies'. notice the benches at the beginning of the video? its seem like it was the after the wedding scene. and notice the hat too? its the same hat that Brendon Urie was wearing. at first, when i saw this video, i had a theory that this was the continuos of 'I Write Sins Not Tragedies' but really, it didnt make much sense anyways.

overall, im pretty excited and really looking forward for the band's new album 'Vices & Virtues'. after listening to 'The Ballad Of Mona Lisa' for the first time, i fell in love with it instantly. im pretty sure they have more tracks that i would fall in love uncontrollably. ahaha.

123

2011-02-28T21:58:00.008+08:00

28th Febuary 2011

4 Months Anniversary

123 days of loving goodness

'if time flew like a dove'

song lyrics by, Paramore

i beg to differ.

time did flew like a dove for me.

call me silly or forgetful, but, i felt like it was just yesterday that we've officially got together. i didnt really realize that it has been 4 month. thats how quick time passes by when you're in love and having so much fun with someone special. he never fails to brighten up and days.

mine is definitely the reason for my happiness.

he called and woke me up from my sleep. he told me that he was coming back from college to pick me up. we were going to Pavilion to celebrate our 4 month anniversary. i figured it was already passed 12 PM because he just started college and i know he wants to catch up with his friends. but when i checked the time. it was only 10-ish AM. really, i got annoyed. i was being ignorant by the fact that i had to get up earlier than usual. at the end i did get up from bed and showered. but really, i was pretty exhausted because i slept at 5 AM that morning.

well, it wasnt much but still it was something for me.

we watched a movie.

been wanting to watch this since, EVER!

and finally, i did get to watch it with him.

if you havent watched you, YOU SHOULD.

one of the scenes that was funny yet very cute.

he gave her a bunch of carrots because she said that she didnt like flowers.

how creative and hilarious.

we ate at 'The Loaf' because we didnt want to eat anything heavy before the movie.

argh, that brownie was so good. i can DAI. you know, i can DAIIIIIIIIIIII!

yes, shoot me. im guilty for being a sweet tooth.

this looks good right now

argh, this one too!

oh Xiah Oppa!

you're so yummy too

but

....

...

i still prefer this! looks super duper yummy!

and not to mention cute too!

argh, wokay. now im a bit hungry for sweets.

ahaha, sorry. moving on!

and when i thought that was it for the day

....

.....

.......

he surprised me with 4 gifts,

he is, the man with many plans indeed.

heart shaped nightlight

because he knew that i couldnt sleep well at night these days. i really needed this. i've been getting nightmares when i sleep lately. maybe that why i sleep when the run rises.

magnetic photo frame

because he wants our photo to be all over my room i suppose.

hehe.

decorative mug

coffee, tea of me? well.... DUH! definitely ME. LOL.

having that very 'perasan' moment right now

let me be, please.

red hippo plushie

his name is Mr.Snugglepuff by the way.

he'll be sleeping beside me with my bantal busyuk also.

hehehe.

:))))))))))

and this is how my room looks like when i off the lights and on the nightlight

again, thank you sayang. you didnt have to get me these stuffs. even though i really needed a nightlight. but again thank you so much. i love you.

oh?

erm

.......

and this is my gift to him

writen secrets

i gave it to him around 9PM. i wanted to give it to him at that same time when we got official on the 28th Oct. hmm, instead, i disturbed him sleeping and he got very annoyed with me. sorry sayang. but i do hope you like the gift. sorry if my gifts are always hard and very complicated.

no more gifts from me for now on.

LOL

#terasake

Female Blogger Dilemma

2011-02-20T22:09:00.004+08:00

Writen by Xiaxue

[reblog post from Denissa]

If you are anonymous - you must be a fat ugly loser in real life.

If you show your identity and you look ugly - You should do plastic surgery.

If you show your identity and you already did plastic surgery - you are fake and disgusting.

If you are au-natural and pretty - you are still fake coz you put make-up, or must photoshop your pictures.

If you are pretty and don't put make up - it's because you don't know how. Also, you look boring and pale.

If you are pretty and put make up - you are superficial, insecure and shallow. Go save a whale.

If you get popular - you are a famewhore.

If you don't get popular - you are a nobody.

If you get popular and earn money from being popular - you are a sell-out.

If you get popular but don't earn money - you are stupid, and also, who you think you are, so bloody high and mighty?

If you are single and not dating - something's wrong with you.

If you are single and dating - you are a slut.

If you are attached - your boyfriend is either ugly or too good for you.

If you are married - you are a boring housewife.

If you are married with kids - why the fuck are you blogging when you should be looking after your kids? You are a shit mom.

If your partner is rich - you are a gold-digger.

If your partner is poor - you are a unrealistic romantic and if you break up with him for someone who works later on, you are a gold-digger.

If your partner is nice - Don't know what he sees in you.

If your partner is a jerk - You are a moron for dating him in the first place but you deserve no better anyway.

If you keep your life private - you have something to hide and you are a liar.

If you don't keep your life private and your life is sad - What a loser.

If you don't keep your life private and your life is fab - What a show off.

If you don't speak your mind - you are stupid, apathetic and unopinionated.

If you speak your mind - you are ignorant and talking about things you don't know about. You should shut up.

If you are fat - that's the only thing you are. That and disgusting.

If you are skinny - You must be anexoric or bulimic. Also you are making other women feel fat and thus spreading unhealthy weight ideals.

If you are of average weight - You are fat.

If you don't respond to haters - Means what they said must be true and you have nothing to say.

If you respond nicely to haters - They will just have more ammunition and hate you more.

If you respond rudely to haters - You cannot take criticism and you are a cyberbully.